Admitting to my depression and addiction to food: where do I go from here?

I want to start this post by explaining that in November, I basically left my job to begin pursuing self-employment and working hard to focus on my health and personal development. I’ve worked full-time or more since I was 16 years old and I’ve always just barely made ends meet. I have recently felt a huge deficit in my mental health, and turning 24 has really made me want to get a move on in working towards the goals that I have (more on that later.)

It’s true that I have lost 80 pounds over the past couple of years through change in lifestyle. There was no diet, there was no hardcore exercising. It was just a gradual shift into eating better and exercising more. I have pledged to update this blog daily as I am currently out of work and have the time to do so. I am hoping that through blogging I can establish a platform for me to make a living in the health/weight loss community. I have a story to tell and a passion for nutrition, diet, and lifestyle because of how personally successful I feel already in this journey. I still have more of my journey to go. I still am bordering on “obese” according to some standards, and easily could lose another 30-40 pounds to really be at the weight my body would be healthiest at. But I sit on this fact: that I’ve already lost 80 pounds and yes, I do eat healthier overall than most people I know. I feel like I’ve earned the right to sit comfortably around 190-200 pounds because I used to weigh close to 270. The truth is that now, I eat a LOT of food. The food itself isn’t unhealthy, but the quantities are not a joke anymore. It used to be funny to kid about the amount I eat. But I’m not laughing anymore. I need to find the proper amount of food to fuel a healthy active lifestyle and maintain it.

The holidays are a particularly hard time for me, and it’s not something I want to really write about the “why” at the moment. In general, cold weather and less sunlight also really leave me in a ditch, so to speak. Depression and anxiety set in hard, and I found myself in bed for an entire month before I realized it was time to get help. I started some therapeutic measures, and a week of random 80 degree weather in March lifted my spirits and pried me out of bed. But then, I caught my boyfriend’s mono, and found myself bedridden for another 2 weeks! I felt conflicted every day with the thought of pushing myself. I was sick of being in bed and I had already spend literally a month away from my friends and away from my life. I was ready to get back into it, to start cooking and sprouting and everything else. Then my boyfriend and I did a juice fast, and I felt uplifted and renewed and READY.

However, I’ve been feeling pretty fatigued again (lingering depression, leftover mono symptoms?) for the past few days and haven’t updated my blog or really taken time to cook myself good healthy meals. I’ve barely done anything except sleep. I also tend not to post unless I’m having a successful day with recipes, food, exercise, etc. So on these days when I barely get out of bed, I tend to not blog either because I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything worth sharing. What I have done over the past few days is begun to network with other blogs and really get into the nitty-gritty of health food and weight loss blogs. One common thing I found is that the most interesting and inspiring blogs (the ones I will actually read the entire posts instead of seeking out recipes – another confession) are the ones that tell the truth NO MATTER WHAT.

So I am working on that whole transparency thing which I know is so valuable in the blogging community. I’m working on it, and I’ll get there soon. I think the hardest part of it is actually writing things like, “Today I ordered 8 rolls of tempura sushi and ate them all.” I’m ashamed of the money, calories, and health wasted on the food and maybe a part of me thinks that if I don’t write about it or tell anyone, that it never even happened! But then my stomach yells at me the next morning and I get depressed looking at my checking account, and maybe transparency and accountability to someone (even a blog written mostly to myself) can help handle some of these recurring feelings of failure and guilt and help me break my issues. I’m ashamed and embarrassed to blog some of these (okay, ALL of my failures) because I don’t want to be perceived as a hypocrite. But what I should be embracing instead are the steps to my recovery and the realization that addiction and food disorders are a real and serious thing. If I keep trying to hide it, I’ll never address the real problem and more importantly, break the vicious harming cycle. This idea of transparency will also help me in my emotional and mental struggles, as next month I begin therapy for anxiety/depression/mood disorder as well.

I’m slowly coming to the concrete conclusion that yes, I do have “disordered eating”. I don’t know how to properly classify it, but it falls somewhere between compulsive eating and binge eating. I’ve also had trouble with binging and purging (through both vomiting and laxatives), as well as extremely restrictive diets, and of course EMOTIONAL EATING. One site suggested the term “Partial Syndrome” and that seems to fit the best. My quick understanding of it is that those who suffer from partial sydrome swing through extreme cycles with food. Ultimately,I am a food addict. And I need to treat that like a real problem, the same as I would if it was alcohol or drugs or gambling or any other damaging addictive compulsive behavior.

I think over the past few years I’ve attempted to fuel my obsession with food into a healthy one, and I’ve certainly gone a far way in doing so. But it’s still an addiction. It’s everything I think about from the minute I wake up until the minute I go to sleep (and then often as I wake up many times in the middle of the night.) I am now concentrating fully on it through my blog while I unemployed, attempting to turn this addiction into something positive. But it’s still a fine line. Because as I attempt to portray myself one way through this blog, I then find myself engaging in more binging/compulsive eating, claiming every time that, “Tomorrow will be the day you start your blog and get on track correctly! Better get takeout.” That’s another big issue with me because it’s easy for me to have food delivered and not leave a trace even to my roommates. No dishes or trash in the kitchen. I can eat it in my room.

My other big issue is trying to correct everything at once, thinking that a huge life overhaul is better accomplished by “starting fresh.” This doesn’t have to be the case. As the day goes on and I gain the energy to begin thinking productively, I make to-do lists that are ridiculously way too ambitious, and then beat myself up for not being able to accomplish them. But there is a sense of overwhelming anxiety when I try to think about making all these changes (which sometimes include things like: cook 2 recipes (one for blog and one for cookbook), walk for 2 hours, yoga for 1 hour, meditate for 1 hour, read 100 pages in XYZ book for research, run XYZ errands, etc). What I realize anyone would say to me as I try to get back into the swing of things as I deal with a major episode of depression accompanied by mono is that GRADUAL changes are better. Incorporating one or two small new things into my day and resting and taking things at my own pace is not necessarily a bad thing. I also find that there are days when I do get everything done, but then I’m so drained that I sleep an entire extra day to make up for it. That’s not healthy either.

I’ve decided that this time that I am able to take off of work really needs to be the final home stretch in my goal to establishing permanent healthy habits and truly dealing with my negative relationship with food. I am going to channel that addiction into a positive light, in hopes to inspire and help others to make permanent healthy changes as well. I want to share my story, and I realize now that the only way it will be relate-able is by finally admitting those ugly things that I know so many people deal with and showing how I’m finally getting past the addictions and obsessions that have plagued my health (mentally, emotionally, and physically) for well over a decade.

So I’m setting small attainable goals. Isn’t that what they say is the first step of weight loss, too? These will be pledges to myself so to speak, but I am pledging them out loud to this blog. For transparency, for accountability. For myself. Because that’s what’s really important. Many of these things I do on the regular basis, but I don’t do them all every day, and this is what I want to build up to. NO MORE EXCUSES.

  • No takeout when alone
  • No eating in bed
  • Eat 3 meals and 3 snacks each day
  • Start each day with a high-protein, high-fiber meal
  • Eat a large green salad every day
  • Accomplish at least 1 form of exercise every day (walk, bike, gym, yoga, etc)
  • Journal all food intake, exercise, and emotions dealing with food/eating daily
  • Meditate for at least 30 minutes a day

These are reasonable goals and I will post on my progress as I work on them. Then, once they become habit, I will set more goals and work towards them. Baby steps. 🙂 This post, in itself, has been a huge step for admitting and accepting my issues and beginning groundwork for real, positive, permanent change.

Happy Hump Day!!


Juice feast day 1: benefits, cost, recipes


Today is the first day of my “Welcome to Spring” Juice feast. I’m aiming for ten days.



The benefits of a juice feast

I’m using it as a way to completely reset and reorganize my goals. I’ve had a few rough months, dealing with high levels of anxiety and depression, and that resulted in my addiction to food kicking in hardcore. I gained about 15 pounds. I’m currently back at 200 pounds, which is a bit depressing since it took me forever to reach under 200. But! I never thought I’d see a ONE starting my weight, and I know with a little bit of effort, these winter pounds will shed and I’ll start feeling better. Luckily, we’ve gotten a break with the unseasonably warm weather we’ve been graced with. This is a phenomenal motivator for me, because I love to be outdoors, and I walk everywhere and go on hikes and bike more. I rejoined at Planet Fitness too, which is a 5 mile round trip walk. When it’s nice out, it’s one of my favorite things to do is walk to the gym and lift then walk home. It’s a great workout overall and a good chance to clear my head every day.

So back to the main topic… to embrace the warm weather and help get back on track with my health, I’m doing a 10 day juice feast. Amazingly, my boyfriend is joining in with me. He’s almost actually more excited than I am somehow. He went out and bought a Hurom Slow Juicer and woke up early this morning (he compared it to Christmas morning!) and we’ve successfully completed our first day juicing together. This will be his first time attempting a juice fast, but he is a regular juicer anyway, usually once a day. I have to admit, I’m a bit smitten that he’s into the idea of a juice fast… it’s really great to have someone as interested and passionate about it as I am, and of course, it always helps to have a friend or partner in challenging health or weight loss endeavours such as this. It’s important to remember that a juice fast should not be done strictly as a way to shed extra pounds. Rather, weight loss is a byproduct of regaining control of your body and nourishing it correctly. It’s not a quick fix, and it’s just as important to maintain a healthy diet after the juice feast in order to continue the journey to wellness and prevent the regaining of unwanted, unhealthy fat.

This is my 5th or 6th juice reboot. I’ve also done the Lemonade Diet a few times (Master Cleanse.) The first time I changed from the MC Diet to a juice feast, the difference was beyond obvious. With the MC diet, you feel toxic and weighed down and ill, even if you do maintain a fairly clean lifestyle. Especially my last time through, I didn’t even last two days because of how ill I felt. Then, when my system restored a bit, I went into my first juice feast. I remember I’ve tried to keep journals throughout them but usually end up being too busy. This time, I’ll be keeping notes and photographing the juice (before AND after!) because I really want to show how much food you’re actually eating. People think they will waste away by just drinking juice – but you feel exactly the opposite chugging down these huge liters of vegetable juice. You feel full and invigorated and reenergized. You feel nourished, and that’s the key here. That’s why I decided it was time for something like this. You see, once your body is truly nourished, it really starts to crave the foods that made it that way. I also think Daylight Savings Time has made a big impact on my food cravings as well. With the additional sunlight (well, later in the day at least), and warmer temperatures, I’ve been able to spend a lot of time outside and exercising and walking like I mentioned, which naturally makes me want to eat less and keep my energy up. Last summer, I was probably about 60% raw on average for the hottest months. I really want to be close to 85-90% raw this summer to experience what its like. I am going to do at least one whole month. I’m building up to that slowly with the increase of fresh juice as well.

The cost of doing a juice feast, and why it’s worth it

OKAY – so, let’s talk cost first. The produce we purchased cost about $80 each and it was mostly organic, even a few local things now. I think it will last us at least 4 days, but we’ll see how it turns out. That would end up being about $20 a day. It sounds like a lot to spend. But let’s really think about it: give up your 2 large iced coffees and 2 alcoholic drinks at night and there you go. Most people don’t realize how much those swipes at Dunkin or bar tabs add up to be. I’ve pretty much given up alcohol for the past two months and its allowed me to spend a little extra on healthy, organic, whole foods. It becomes difficult to break the pattern of going out, having a drink or 2, and recovering in the morning with a coffee. Its how our society works.

Caffeine and alcohol are both stressors, triggering the body to raise its cortisol levels. Cortisol is a hormone that is released when our bodies are stressed. It’s basically a fight or flight trigger: our blood pressure and heart rate increase, and all other systems kind of shut off except for our stress response. When cortisol levels are raised repeatedly from different stressors, whether from the world around us, our own mind, or the food we eat, the body tends to become fatigued from all the spikes and crashes. And it’s a neverending cycle. Start the day with something like coffee and donuts, and your body is going to release a whole bunch of cortisol to counteract the processed food. The simple carbohydrates (white flour, refined oil, sugar) and caffeine will metabolize quickly and provide a huge burst of energy. But what comes up must come down. Our pancreas responds urgently and releases a rush of insulin. The quick letdown leads us to reach for another fast fix – an afternoon iced coffee, a bag of chips, or a candy bar. This repeated abusive cycle is what often leads to many health problems, which can be as mild as fatigue and joint pain, or possibly as serious as diabetes, cancer, and heart disease.

So, when you think about what a juice fast can do to benefit your body and health, $20 a day doesn’t seem all that unreasonable. Remember, daily care and investment in your health can save you tens to hundreds of thousands of dollars in health care bills later on in life. Plus, I find that eating well and living well allows me to accomplish more day to day since I don’t feel weighed down and ill. Spending more money on organic and natural whole foods has resulted in my living a fuller, happier life. (And I write this to REMEMBER it, because there are often times that I slip into ordering take out and eating junkier, and that always leads to a decrease in exercise and a lessening desire to do my favorite activities. By writing this down and focusing on how good these foods make me feel, it’s a way to stay motivated and stay on track. Try it the next time you notice you’re feeling particularly healthy and focused. Writing things down makes our brain process them an extra time, and then you have the ability to reread and remember it too. Just something that’s worked for me from time to time.)

Juice Feast Day 1: Recipes and photos

Since we didn’t get a start until after noon, the first juice we made was about double the size. I aim for 5-6 twenty oz juices a day (this was kind of determined by what Joe Cross, the inspiring film maker and juicer extraordinaire, consumes in his film “Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead.”) By the way, I recommend anyone embarking or considering a juice fast, or even just the idea of incorporating more fresh juice into their diet, see this film and really pay attention to his messaging. His website has a ton of great resources as well.

Juice #1:

  • 2 carrots
  • 1 lemon with peel
  • 3 small apples
  • hunk of ginger according to taste
  • 6 radishes
  • 1/2 large cucumber
  • 1/4 pineapple


This recipe yielded about 5 cups, like I said, about double the amount I’d normally make for one sitting due to a late start. This particular juice was a bit too heavy in the ginger, but I think it was only because the new juicer processed the ginger much more efficiently. I’ve used thumb size pieces before and never gotten such a strong flavor. Almost immediately after I finished drinking the juice, I found myself running to pee about 15 times over the next few hours!! The first time, my pee was very dark and strong smelling, which was unusual for me, as I’m usually extremely well hydrated. I had some water too with the juice, but this seemed like a crazy amount of trips to the bathroom. As soon as I was done, I had to go again. For someone who’s used to peeing quite frequently, I was a little alarmed at the sensation. Later, I did a bit of research that showed that radish juice is specifically used as a kidney cleanser and often used in aiding the passing of kidney stones. Neat!



Juice #2:

  • 4 stalks of celery
  • approx 3 cups of broccoli, including stalk
  • 1 apple
  • 4 carrots
  • handful or parsley


This yielded about 2 and a half cups, so it was just about the right 20 oz serving size. I really love the refreshing taste that celery and parsley give together. By the time this juice was done, I didn’t have the crazy diuretic feeling anymore. I downed another 32 oz of water after to help continue flushing. The juice helps stir the toxins out of your cells and the water helps flush it out. Yay!



Juice #3:

  • 1/4 pineapple
  • 3 carrots
  • 1/2 red pepper
  • 1/2 cucumber
  • 8 asparagus stalks


This one also yielded just under 3 cups, again, a great size for one juice meal. Red pepper and pineapple is one of my absolutely favorite juice combinations. In the summer, I like to juice an entire pineapple with a couple red peppers and a jalapeno. It results in this sweet, crisp, spicy juice that is just not a flavor you can get anywhere else. (And in case you were wondering, yes, asparagus juice does make your pee stinky!) I drank another 32 oz of water after this juice too.



We also had a nice large helping of homemade vegetable broth, repurposing some of the vegetable broth from earlier with potato, onion, garlic, and spices. Boil all together in filtered water, strain well, and enjoy. This is especially a good way to help curb cravings when you feel the need to eat, not because you’re hungry, but because you feel like you SHOULD be eating something. The act of eating the broth with a spoon and the fact that it’s so warm and flavorful, and so strikingly different from the juice you’ve been feasting on all day, is surprisingly satisfying. (Here’s a post I wrote before on the process of making homemade vegetable broth from juice pulp.)

I know a lot of people wonder about other bathroom effects of a juice fast, and so far I have not had any terrifying bathroom experiences. This could be because I’m very regular normally, so I’m not very backed up. But remember that if you are, the juice will definitely swoosh in and help clean out. Maybe more to write on that tomorrow… For now you just get to hear about my pee! 🙂

Since we didn’t get a start until after noon, the first juice we made was about double the size. I aim for 5-6 twenty oz juices a day.

Get physical, 15 minutes at a time, and remember how good you feel!

If there’s one thing I’ve learned since I’ve started “getting physical,” it was that every small thing you do adds up. You read on websites that “15 minutes here and there make a difference.” So you add in a 15 minute walk 1 or 2 nights after work. That’s not a bad start, but it’s true that they mean these quick bursts of exercise to happen much more frequently. I aim for 3-4 a day, because that then means I’ve added one hour of physical activity in each day! That’s the kind of time that will make a difference.

Doing my best to remember this, whenever I find myself shunning my workouts, I start adding back in a few minutes here and there of simple movements until I begin craving an actual more intense workout. That’s where I finally got back to today. The winter time is especially hard for me to keep up with working out. It’s not necessarily the cold, it’s more the lack of sunshine. I lose my motivation. I’m not good at being active inside. But I’m going to make an effort. It’s my goal to get my body strong enough and my mind confident enough to bike wherever I need to go in the city by the spring. In fact, it’s supposed to be like 45 degrees tomorrow, so I am promising myself I am going to get a bike tire pump and get on my bike, for at least an hour tomorrow.

There are two things which I think really pushed me over that barrier into saying, “Okay, it’s time to seek out a workout.” First, I’ve been consuming a large fruit smoothie every day this week with a greens powder and almond milk. I haven’t had any fruit in a really long time actually. This was a great boost to my overall well being the last few days, so I’ve been feeling physically ready to do a workout. No fatigue, good digestion, free from aches and pains. The second thing that really got me itching for some endorphins was when I went out to sweep the front porch. Sounds strange right? Well our front porch and stairs and sidewalk all connect, and I kind of started getting carried away. When I went to return the broom to the backyard, I decided the whole thing needed cleaning. So, I went to work. My heart rate definitely picked up and I could feel the muscles in my arms and back working. It felt great.

So, to ride that high, I decided I’d download some Workout of the Day Apps on my phone, and I went through the Arms and Butt one, both the 10 minute versions. They were definitely a good reminder of why I need to get back to working out, haha. But really, even though I was feeling a little shaky, my muscles were almost screaming out with gratitude.

Then I did the 45 minute Crunch: Candlelight Yoga on Netflix Watch Instantly. If you’ve never checked it out, I highly recommend it. It’s very soothing and easy and it’s a great full body stretching workout. It always gets me feeling significantly more limber after just a few days in a row, and you’ll become motivated to maintain this type of stretching in your daily routine. Not to mention, you’ll sleep better and be in a better mood. Or at least, that’s what it does for me. My muscles get so angry at me if I add yoga back in regularly and then take it away. But once you remind yourself the difference it makes in everything from posture and weight loss to digestion and stress management, you won’t deny your muscles the privilege either.

Let me perfectly clear. There are plenty of days that I do not want to work out and there are plenty of weeks that go by that I do not. The same with unhealthy eating, the best way to break it is slowly. Like I talked about at the very beginning of this post, a little bit here and there makes you crave more. It really is exactly the same as the process of incorporating whole, nourishing foods. Give your body a little, and it will ask for much more. It’s a great cycle to be in. The more I continuously exercise, the more my body continues to avoid empty calories, and literally, those foods do not taste as good to me. If you’re taking the time and making the effort to work your body hard, why negate all that? Healthy foods lead to a quicker recovery rate (that means less sore for less time, but still able to work hard!), healthier digestion which aids endurance and overall performance, and it also allows your body to develop muscles and shed fat with more ease (and you’ll have more of a shot maintaining it.)

Everything I’ve said, of course, is just my personal experience. In fact, I’m thrilled that I’m finally writing it all down because when I’m feeling that the last thing I want to do is get off my butt and do 10 squats, it will help motivate me. Eventually, remembering these positive feelings, and embracing the feeling of being strong, limber, and fit, will help me maintain a consistent exercise schedule. At least, the gaps between times when I’m working out consistently and times when I’m spotty are getting shorter in length and less frequent. Victory!

How do you motivate yourself to stay working out or get back on the wagon if you’ve taken a little too much time away? How do you feel when you consistently maintain a workout schedule?

Green protein smoothie and introduction to coconut oil

After a gross hiatus from exercise, I am getting back on track officially today. That means at least 1 hour of physical activity each day and also a protein smoothie to add nutrition and help build fitness. I got rid of my vehicle lately, which has forced me to start walking everywhere. I have done this before, and every time I’m in a pattern of walking, I tend to get more and more motivated to work out and get stronger and be able to zip around town on my own two feet. I will be biking again soon, but feel not strong enough quite yet. I need to exercise for a week or so and then hop back on. My plan is to gain energy and confidence in myself again before my 1 month vacation in January (heading back to my hometown in California – 29 palms! I’m even doing a 10 day silent meditation retreat, but I’ll have to write about that later.) I do feel pretty good most of the time, but I’m getting a bit squishy after this hiatus from real exercise. So yea, time to step it up again.

Today’s workout was 45 minutes on the Cross Ramp, interval setting, alternating between resistance 1 and 8. I hovered around 115-125 strides per minute. (This is my first attempt at actually tracking progress with speed, resistance, and when it comes to strength training, the weight that I’m using.) I also walked 4 miles total, as it’s 1.5 miles each way to the gym and then another mile to the grocery store.

I feel GREAT right now. Remember that! Note to self: you feel GREAT right now. I can’t wait to go sweat it out some more.

That’s how it’s really been my entire weight loss journey. I’ll begin by really buckling down and keeping a food log and exercise log. Then eventually I get into the rhythm of how good it feels to maintain health, and I stop tracking it, but then that leads to me cheating here and there and falling a bit off track. My “off track” days used to mean slices of vegan carrot cake and 300 calorie vegan cookies and chocolate bars and salt and pepper potato chips and fried buffalo seitan and popcorn drenched in Earth Balance (all former cravings even after lifestyle change!) I don’t crave most of those things too often now. My cravings tend to centralize around savory foods and not sweet ones. I do have a very fond attachment to Daiya Cheese and like to use it in several dishes. I had been using a lot of Earth Balance and Daiya lately, and that’s my “off track” cheat now. But today? Right now? After hitting the gym and sipping on this smoothie? I don’t feel cravings for ANY of that. I think this really the key in weight loss or any type of struggle really. Remember, make a mental note (or physical – write it down!) about how good you feel, your energy level, your confidence level. If you feel sexy, remember that! It will help motivate you on the days when its a bit harder to get your workout in. And another thing to remember, that food that nourishes, such as this protein smoothie, will taste even better the more your body needs the nutrients to refuel. The more you feed your body the fuel it needs, the more you’ll actually feel like working out. And the more you feed your body nutrient-dense foods, the less you’ll crave empty calories. Your body won’t want that crap anymore, trust me. It’s a positive cycle.

So, I’m going to make a protein smoothie with baby spinach. The reason I specifically start any kind of reset or “back on track” period of time with a smoothie is because of how much nutrition it packs in for not a lot of calories or really energy to digest. It’s already liquid!

OKAY – so what’s in my smoothie today??

  • 2 cups organic unsweetened soymilk
  • 1 large organic banana
  • 1 cup frozen pineapple chunks
  • 1 heaping scoop Lifetime Life’s Basics Plant Protein (hemp, chia, rice, and pea)*
  • 1 Tbsp coconut oil**


*This protein is my absolute favorite. It tastes GREAT just even on its own. Even to someone not used to protein powders. It’s soy-free, gluten-free, dairy-free. And it packs a great nutritional punch. Find it on for the best deal. They have a Subscribe & Save program where you can get it on autoship each month (or however often) and you get free shipping and 15% off too. Crazy!

**In a recent post, I explained the benefits of getting healthy fats from whole foods and how I’m a supporter of limiting (or eliminating, ideally) all refined oils. I have never cooked with or consumed coconut oil. I have heard through the grapevine that it is extremely healthy for you, even from people who generally don’t consume extracted oils. (Must be virgin coconut oil – unrefined.) The consensus seems to be that coconut, flax, and hemp seed oils are still very beneficial to our bodies. The big difference being that these oils are often just extracted and not refined. Since they haven’t gone through that processing, many of the healthy fats are still intact and have not been destroyed through heating.

The benefits of coconut oil that I’m interested in gaining include nicer hair and skin, healthier digestion and metabolism, effective weight loss, and increased immune support. Before beginning to consume an oil like this on a regular basis, I want to make sure I understand WHY it is so beneficial. The knowledge behind the healthy benefits of certain foods is really what motivates me to try new things and increase the nutritional density of every meal.

So let’s start with the benefits to hair and skin. I have been using coconut oil externally for approximately 6 months now (on and off) as both a deodorant and moisturizer. What I’ve noticed is that my skin feels smoother for longer, it tends to have a nicer overall hue, and just looks generally more healthy and less blemished. Coconut oil is also antimicrobial. Using it as a deodorant helps kill the bacteria which cause bad body odor. (Of course, body odor is affected by what we eat as well. A clean diet will definitely result in less of a toxic smell from your pits.) And since its moisturizing and antimicrobial, it works great to help heal cuts or skin abrasions or other problems. It also makes sense that if coconut oil has these properties, that consumed internally, it would help boost the immune system in fighting free radicals. Also, the healthy fats will help increase skin elasticity and keep it looking healthy from inside too!

As far as metabolism and weight loss are concerned, it seems to be that coconut oil behaves differently than other oils due to medium chain fatty acids (MCFAs). When fat is consumed, the fat is broken down and sent into the bloodstream and directly to the cells. The MCFAs in coconut oil are actually sent to the liver instead, where they convert to energy the same way that carbohydrates would. This quick efficient boost of energy speeds the metabolism, which could help boost weight loss!

Some resources on the benefits of coconut oil: Coconut ConnectionsCoconut Oil CentralLIVESTRONG

And now that I’m way off track… how about a photo of that smoothie I’m sipping on? And then I’m off to work on some sprouted grain breads!


Approximate Nutrition Facts

Calories: 631

Calories from fat: 211

Total fat: 23.6 g

Saturated fat: 13.7 g

Sodium: 384 mg

Potassium: 1356 mg

Carbohydrates: 67.4 g

Fiber: 13.2 g

Sugar: 36.57 g

Protein: 42.8 g